so yup. a mixture of feelings today.will talk about the sad part first, because i dont want to make this post of mine look like some emo freak is posting ~.~
O level chinese results today. gotten B3 in a row. jackpot also wont so zhun -.-
oral and listening compre improved from merit to distinction thou, but still, failed to get an A.
having compo as the contributing factor to make us failed to get our As was really heartbroken.
all of us can write good compo, but because of the change in question and the carelessness in ourselves had resulted us missed our As again.
knowing that compo might had killed me before getting the results, am still hoping to at least get an A2, to show that i had made some improvement to push me to get A1 during the 4th time.
but truth are always so disheartening, making me so physically and mentally tired for the 4th time.
people around me keep saying, aiya you got B3 very good already. i got B4/C5/C6 leh.
but i know myself very clearly, chinese is the only subject which i'm rather good at. if my chinese cant get A, which subject would?
maybe because i had placed my hopes too high, and that's why the impact of falling is greater.
fucking crying like a bitch even after 2 hour of knowing the result totally make me look like some loser who cant seems to get over it easily.
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facts are always hard to accept. but i'm glad that friends around me showed care and concern to me by telling me to cheer up and passed me packets of tissues.
even not-so-close friends like xinyi and julian also cheered me up by telling me not to be sad and tell me to work hard.
the first person whom i messaged with was mer, and her ''aiyoh dont be sad my dear! cheer up!'' message made me felt so much better.
daph ho's ''ask dor to cheer up, it's not the end.'' message brighten up my mood too.
some people might have different types of cheering people up, like guailan-ing.
koonheng, weiliang and jasper's jokes and way of gl-ing never fails to make me laugh and make a smile appears on my face.
what would have been better with friends around you when you needed them the most? (:
not forgetting mrs hoo's words, they were so encouraging.
making tears swelling up in my eyes at that point of time.
saying that i have potential and stuffs made me kinda guilty that i failed to get A1 for her this time .___.
making tears swelling up in my eyes at that point of time.
saying that i have potential and stuffs made me kinda guilty that i failed to get A1 for her this time .___.
enough of the sad part thou. keeping talking about it only makes me feels even more discouraging /:
it's ducky kua yahhui's birthday today, so yep.
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, DUCKY KUA! :D
celebrated her b'day after school and was late for around 20 mins for geo lessons x:
ongmin and co's presents was the coolest ever. tomato sauce with jagabee. TOTALLY L-O-L.
thou this might be a simple birthday celebration, hope that you had enjoyed your day yea! :D
study hard ah, my P6 tuition friend till this very day! <3
lunched in school with the usual people after geo lessons and walked to the bustop with dex lee and wen.
OH BTW, I LOVE THIS YEAR'S CLASS PHOTO. THE INFORMAL ONE WAS WAY TOO FUNNY. HAHAHAHAHAHA. I BOUGHT 8R FOR THAT! LMAO.
homed around 5 and am doing the last checking for coursework right now.
gonna print and hand in tomorrow, and poof, byebye coursework.
will upload the pictures when i received them on fri/sat.
after that, i'll be going on hiatus and really stop blogging till Os over.
68 more days, it's going to hit 5_ soon. prelim 3 and english oral is coming as well.
time only move in two ways; too fast or too slow.